Last Friday, we were working through some things. And as I tried to explain them to my counselor, neither of us could quite figure out where the feelings were coming from, or even what they were. When I got home, I started processing (like I always do) and started to realize what was behind the emotional wall that I just couldn’t get through or face, while in my counselor’s office. As I did, I have started to get more anxious and afraid of my own thoughts. They have been pretty dark. Now, the medication has kept me OK, and able to function, but I just don’t want to face these emotions alone. Even if God is with me all the time, I just don’t even know how, especially when they are so negative. So, I called my counselor’s office today and was able to get in for an appointment tomorrow morning. I thank God that she is also a Christian and relies on God’s guidance and wisdom in helping me.
I guess the biggest thing would be to pray for me that I would be able to stay open and honest with her, and be able to work through things enough for me to feel more stable, and more at peace.
God, give my counselor and I both wisdom to know Your will for me, and discernment into the emotions and thoughts I have been dealing with. And God give me the ability to get beyond this barrier that I am up against so that I can become more free in You.
Amen and Amen!