Speak, O Lord...

Speak, O Lord

Speak, O Lord, as we come to You
To receive the food of Your Holy Word.
Take Your truth, plant it deep in us;
Shape and fashion us in Your likeness,
That the light of Christ might be seen today
In our acts of love and our deeds of faith.
Speak, O Lord, and fulfill in us
All Your purposes for Your glory.

Teach us, Lord, full obedience,
Holy reverence, true humility;
Test our thoughts and our attitudes
In the radiance of Your purity.
Cause our faith to rise; cause our eyes to see
Your majestic love and authority.
Words of pow’r that can never fail—
Let their truth prevail over unbelief.

Speak, O Lord, and renew our minds;
Help us grasp the heights of Your plans for us—
Truths unchanged from the dawn of time
That will echo down through eternity.
And by grace we’ll stand on Your promises,
And by faith we’ll walk as You walk with us.
Speak, O Lord, till Your church is built
And the earth is filled with Your glory.

Words and Music by Keith Getty & Stuart Townend
Copyright © 2005 Thankyou Music

We sang this song this morning at church. The words really hit me… having God take His Truth and plant it deep within me… Test my thoughts and my attitudes in the radiance of Your purity. Cause my faith to rise; cause my eyes to see Your majestic love and authority… Help me grasp the heights of Your plans for me… if that is truly my heart’s cry, I know that God will answer it. He answered my simple cry last night just to be able to go to church. I have to trust Him. I must totally rely on my Savior and the Truth. It is hard… always hard.

Praying for more faith… I know that I need it (faith that is). I see the things that He does, the little things, like making the snow delay long enough for us to get to church as a family today… our neighbor across the street coming home, just in time to see Dave giving up on our snow blower and starting to shovel his way down the driveway, calling up to me that he would be out there for a while, and he offered his snow blower to Dave. It took Dave no more than 5 minutes to clear the driveway with that monster of a machine. Dave came in so blessed (and with extreme snow blower envy…) and was able to relax with the kids… God allowing me the time to go outside with Peter after supper to play in the snow, and clear the end of the driveway after the plow came through one more time…

It’s little stuff like that. So why do I doubt so quickly that He will answer the big stuff… is it because I don’t see it happening in my time, or the answers are happening, but so slow that I don’t see the change? A couple of people that I trust have said they see the growth in me, see Christ through me, working in me… I just don’t see it, feel it… it frustrates me. It frustrates me to see the doubt and struggles in a couple of my last few posts… I have written them later at night, so probably my views are getting skewed by being tired, but I feel like I should be doing better…. that I should somehow put up the mask, and make it out that things are better than they really are. But then I am not being transparent… Like I said, frustrating.

Lord, give me the grace to stand on your promises, so that in faith I will walk as you walk with me… Let me reflect Your glory and not walk in shame at my past, but in the glorious freedom of forgiveness. Walking dressed in the white robe, as white as the new snow outside… purchased with your precious blood. Help me to realize the truth that You rejoice over me with gladness. Quiet me with Your love. Let me hear your singing as you rejoice over me.
(paraphrased from Zephaniah 3:17)