Here I am sitting at the computer on a beautiful, sunny, warm day. I am inside, only because the kids and I were out this morning and ate lunch as a picnic in our back yard. They got tired and wanted in, so therefore I had to go in too.
I have a ton of things I could be doing around here. The list seems to be unending. I have been working on some laundry, cleaned up the kitchen some, and started defrosting some brats for supper.
I have a ton more to do, other than the day to day upkeep.
We are going to be moving, probably at the beginning of August to the farm. We need to get the house ready to go on the market. I can't begin to comprehend how in the world we are going to get this place ready!
All I can see right now is the big picture. I can't figure howanything that I attempt to do today even begins to affect that big picture!
I am overwhelmed. When I get overwhelmed I grind to a halt.
It doesn't help that I'm still not feeling 100% over the cold I had yet. I am still exhausted, and coughing some still. I want to curl up and sleep, but that may not be all due to the cold, as some of that comes from the automatic shut down I go into when I don't know how to tackle what I have to tackle.
With all the day to day things I need to get done, I can't seem to figure out how to get the other stuff done on top of it. I am so behind on the laundry, the cleaning, and daily maintenance because of my cold, that it will take me all weekend to get caught up on that, and by the time I get to next weekend... well, I will be starting over on that stuff again, and not get to the clearing out of this house to move.
Dave set the kids last week to packing up some of their toys. Marina partially filled one box and quit (and I kept on throwing away things, or throwing more in there. Peter filled 3 boxes. That was a start. I however keep flitting from one thing to another, with great intentions and nothing gets done.
I can hear Peter in their room right now, throwing things into a box to take things out to the farm. I wish I had his motivation, or focus or whatever it is that is getting him going right now!
I guess what I could use is some prayer~
to be able to see one piece at a time
to have the motivation to do something - however small
to not let myself get overwhelmed but instead focus on God who is my strength
to trust in Him and believe Him in this upheaval as well
Don't think that I don't want to move to the farm. I do. Very much. I just wish there was some way to "zap" all our stuff there and not have to figure out how to pack it all up!
So, if it is quiet around my blog for a bit, it isn't because I don't want to write. It is mostly because I am so exhausted and have so much to do.
When I have this much on my plate, I find myself feeling dry and unable to write. I hate that feeling and it is hard to try to write when I feel like all I am writing is "drivel!"
Know that I am taking time to read and visit other blogs, but I just have felt really dry and unable to contribute much.
And now I must go and see what "damage" the kids are doing as they are trying to "pack up their room" to move it to the farm!!